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Passing the Past & Alice in Wonderland

Posted by whenthescapegoatquits on March 23, 2010

A good friend of mine is an astrologer.  As part of the cycle, he’s saying it’s time for us collectively to move beyond the past and into newer ways of thinking and doing.  It doesn’t mean we have to forget about the past or even forgive it if we are not ready to do so.  Just that we need to learn what no longer works for us and how to strive towards what does  work for us. 

This is very relevant for me.  As I’m getting to learn more about the scapegoating and the impact it’s had on me, I’m learning more about how much bigger and better the world is without it.  I don’t hate the people who have scapegoated me or wish them ill.  I’m not going to let them into my life to hurt me again.  Instead I choose to focus on the people who do care about me and value relationships with me. 

Some of these folks are my cousin & his partner.   We went to see Alice in Wonderland this weekend.  We had a very nice time.  I was listening to the lyrics of the song playing while the closing credits rolled.   And I Googled them.  Not sure if they’re 100 percent accurate, but they’re at the end of this post.  and here’s the video

I really relate to the sense of dislocation and wondering which world is real.  And the sense of falling and struggling to  getting back up.  The world of scapegoating  was a very small and narrow world.  The post scapegoating world is much larger.  I’m getting older and normally this song would be a bit loud for me, but I liked what it had to say, I’ve bought it and using it as sort of an anthem.  Now if I can only use it to motivate me to get to the gym! 🙂  I’m including a link to the video too.

 

Trippin out
Spinning around
I’m underground
I fell down
Yeah, I fell down

I’m freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can’t stop it now
Can’t stop me now, oh oh

I, I’ll get by
I, I’ll survive
When the world’s crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don’t you try to stop me
I, I won’t cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet, on the ground
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I’ll take a stand until the end

I, I’ll get by
I, I’ll survive
When the world’s crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don’t you try to stop me
I, I won’t cry

I, I’ll get by
I, I’ll survive
When the world’s crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don’t you try to stop me
I, and I won’t cry

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