Felt like writing some more letters
Effectively immediately, I’m resigning as your keeper. When relatives ask about you, I’ll be telling the closer ones that we are no longer on speaking terms and why. I hope you don’t get yourself into prison ever again, but if you do, I won’t be lying to the family about it again for you.
And when they ask why don’t call/email in general, I’m just going to tell them to talk to you.
You know, I actually feel sorry for you. I can’t imagine how miserable it is to be caught up in so much insecurity and self-hatred that you have to project that onto me. Most mothers try to encourage their kids to be close. Because they know after the parents are gone, the siblings are the only ones from the Family of Origin who will still be there. Not you, you had to spread your poison that destroyed our relationship to the ones between me & bro & me & SIL. Congratulations, you’ve achieved your goal. We’re no longer speaking any more. And that means any grandchildren you have won’t have this particular aunt in their life.
But I guess considering you told your own mom to drop dead shortly before she killed herself, cut out your dad and both your siblings from your life, you think this is normal. And while I’m angry and grieving at the losses you’ve helped contribute to, once again, I feel pity and sorrow for you. Because you actually thinked this f**ked up sh** is normal. It’s not. And it’s sad that you think it is. If you could limit the damage to just yourself and I, I could even say I forgive you. But you had to cut a larger swath of destruction. I hope you’re satisfied, you pathetic miserable person.
I was willing to forget the past and work on a good future relationship with you. Or if that wasn’t possible, at least be civil to you while still being a part of bro & SIL’s life. But none of that was satisfactory to you. Scorched & salted earth only was acceptable to you. Well, congatulations, you’ve got it. But I’m not the only one scorched and salted. You have scorched & salted everyone around you including yourself and your future grandchildren. I hurt now, but there are good people around me who I will continue to build community with. You will continue to isolate yourself even more. You’ve had falling outs/cutoff with your entire family of origin, most of your good friends & most of your extended family. You will no doubt continue to cut people out of your life instead of add to it as most people do. Life does its own subtraction in the form of death. And sometimes people are too toxic to stay in our lives or we just lose touch. But you cut people out for merely not being your little puppets. I truly feel sorry for you.